Do you ever get that feeling where you don't wanna talk to anybody? You don't wanna smile and you don't want to fake being happy. But at the same time you don't know exactly what's wrong either. There isn't a way to explain it to someone who doesn't already understand. If you could want anything in the world it would be to be alone. People have stopped being comforting and being alone never was. At least when you're alone no one will constantly ask you what is wrong and there isn't anyone who won't take 'I don't know' for an answer. You feel the way you do just Because. You hope the feeling will pass soon and that you will be able to be yourself again, but until then all you can do is wait. Wait for it to pass.

fck. yeah so, do you ever just ...feel like soo shitty and you don't really know whats up but you know that something is? like, an off-day i suppose..? yeah, felt like that today .. really bad too >_>. i don't know why though. it was pretty sudden but like idk, just felt like crap. don't know why, maybe its just everything..? meh. suppose i should've expected this cause i've been so happy lately.. guess i should know by now that maybe not for everyone, but for me really high highs mean mega-lows later on..

gahhhhhh. stupid distraction; you triggered it! ..sorta i think TT" zomg, what am i thinking... this is too wierd. can't handle all this crap right now. plus exams? ughh. guess all this wierd shit will have to wait til after yearlies. just hope i don't have any more off-days next week, or a mental breakdown or something ._.

haha and ty brendan, justin, ann, jeff, & javery; you people are hilarious lol :) <3

ok blogging again after exams finish. so week 3 k? lol and it will be my 69th post ahaha. people have so many posts compared to me D:

tata for now xx

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