Fuck, I'm sorry. I'm so sorry, for putting you through all that crap. The pain. Insecurity. Jealousy. I'm sorry I didn't care enough to see that you were going through HELL because of me. Why am I saying this all now? Because it finally got through to my big fat head that what I did was wrong, and now I'm paying the price. I know how you feel now. Like no matter how many times you're reassured, told that she means nothing, that you're the only one he loves you still can't help but feel that jealousy everytime you see them together. You feel so below her. Like she's so much better than you when really, she has got NOTHING on you. And when I say that I do mean myself, I have nothing on you. You're beautiful, you're great and me, I was this horrible bitch clinging onto anyone close enough because I was just too naive to see that it was time to move on. I hurt not only you, I hurt her and now I am going through what I deserve. I'm sorry for what I put you through. For what I did to the two of you, four of you, I regret it, so so deeply. I only wish for you to know how much remorse I feel for the person I was back then. A loser. Stuck in the past, when really I should've been looking to the future. Now I'm in shit.
