Look honestly i'm just so sick of everything. Everything.

For one this stupid wave of putting each other down online (yeah I'm fucking looking at you skxdlx or whatever shit). Get a life would you? It's just not nice what you're doing. You're bitching about these young, and I emphasise YOUNG girls, younger than you. You should really know better. It's just silly. Keep your unkind opinions to yourself. Stop - look at what you're doing. It's like a cry for attention, isn't it? Just, get a life. Worry about yourself. Stop obsessing and setting out to put these people down. Focus on your own life. Please. What you're doing is just totally unnecessary.

Also just, I'm so sick of people. And I don't mean everyone. lol. I still love you guys, just, some people, just are really getting on my nerves.

1. You need to sort out your priorities. You keep doing this, you keep hurting me. Everytime I try and spill my heart out to you, everytime I reach out for help, you do nothing. In fact the next day you're all over him. It's as if you're doing it on purpose. Are you doing it on purpose? What's wrong with you, don't you get it? You're fucking hurting me. The both of you. Him I can understand, with him hurting me is nothing new, but you, I had more faith in you. You let me down, over and over again.

2. You.. you're the luckiest damn girl in the world. Or are you? I don't know, part of me is jealous; the other part feels so so sorry for you; because it's only a matter of time before he hurts you, again and again. Or is he already hurting you? I don't know. I'm not a part of his perfect little life anymore. You are his life now, no-one else matters to him. So cherish it; you never know when it's gonna end. And I'm not hoping and praying that it will, I'm not that kind of person. Just, nothing lasts forever. Remember that. Stay strong.

3. There is nothing I would like more than to shove a wad of ant-infested bark up your sorry ass. Oh, do you think that's a bit harsh? Well take a look in the mirror. Think that'll hurt? Look at what you've done to me. You can't ever even begin to understand how much pain and suffering you have put me through. You make me feel like I'm worthless. Like I'm not good enough. And you made me feel guilty. You made me feel like it was my fault when really it's yours. It's just not fair because you're allowed to move on, and not give a shit, while me, I CAN'T LET GO AND IT HURTS SO GODDAMN MUCH. I can't even bare looking at you. I really can't. You're just lucky that I'm not cruel enough to put you through what I've gone through.

4. Look, I don't understand why you're doing the things that you are doing. You can't keep pulling me in when it's convenient for you and pushing me away when it isn't. What do you want from me? I honestly have enough on my plate right now, I don't need this. I can't keep going on like this, I'm enough of a disaster as it is. I can't keep setting myself up for the pain you keep putting me through. Figure out what it is you want from me before you come back this time.

5. Keep your head held high. If you want to cry out loud, turn to me. If you want nothing more than to scream profanities and throw things, let me be there to scream and throw with you. As hypocritical as this sounds don't let him get to you. I know you're a strong, independent, beautiful person and you don't deserve this. You don't deserve to be broken, left behind, forgotten, replaced. We don't deserve any of the shit these smelly boys have dumped onto our backs. Good things fall apart for the better to come, remember that. I love you unconditionally. Smile, we don't need boys hehe. xxx


I'm totally a wreck and I need to fix myself before it's too late. Might talk to someone about it. All. We'll see I guess. Well goodbye for now